Reprise

 

You asked a question time ago,

what’s possible to happen with my own essence,

if you’re vanished, and you’re gone?

Inquisitive a lot? Let’s start in such case then!

Have a smoke, keep quiet. Listen down! -

recount myself a story, not going to pretend.

 

Tear up foremost the last and only strings

of your violin and most beloved guitar,

thus try and play the breaking music

your soul for mine created deep by heart.

 

Go next to our yard and pull out Rowan

of the Sycamore, covered by Her roots.

Please, don’t forget to bring an ember

and through it debris graciously remove!

 

At the end jump over in a minute to the rock.

Footbridge misses, yet a help you don’t need.

Snap off wings of one alighted, sheltered bird

and generously feed on vulture by Her relics.

 

The most important I’d miss again because of absent mind!

Check your mail - tattered, valediction letter there waiting lays

with one and only sent addressed petition ever, and an oath.

An envelope, for sure plain will be subjoined - open with no haste.

Through your palms its content spill attentively, with love -

nothing special, do not worry! Make it out - where you’re left ,

I’ll be there to remain - aches next to aches, dust into a dust.

 

Insisted hard to learn about, yet sometime shouldn’t do

without substantial reason a kind of question to be rushed.

Just tell me in response - could you manage really, true

in sober earnest unconditional and pure you to be in trust?

 

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Match-seller

 

Seizing with fear, beyond furious dread -

expectance burst clear, thoughts drastic supply

season frayed bloodily raveled, veins warping me hell.

Remembrance - sense. Rarely happens so far to provide

such a convulsive nightmare my irritable brain.

Orphanage time is arriving - hunger time and divide.

 

Compassionate somehow in fact,

under guise of words wistful

count alms generous out,  

go home then! - Christmas is coming,

it runs year by year,

though not orphans about, so what?

 

Have got still quantity matches...

Please, bye at once all!,

hence should no reasons be out to belong.

Eyes follow fate’s their.

You love me, I know! -

Exactly up to the entrance’s door.

 

Come on! Draw near and rob!

Piece after piece you can tear!

A soul gratis is put up for sale!

Be active! For sure able to more!

Brake off without hew of a fear!

Yet she offers it whole by herself!

 

Let she’s handing out fire,

in answer no asking even for bread,

since a world magic creates, and inspires,

your journey in calm keep going ahead.

Doesn’t matter she’s hungry! -

succeeds to enflame the inner frost, right?

Treasure it somewhere in secret and safely,

as thyself - in your warm, intangible house.

 

While casting a farewell glimpse to a vagabond tattered,

to simplicity foolish through her only last match

leave-taking as valedictory gesture, she’s going to melt up

beneath even in embryo future ice deep in your hearts.

 

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Possession

 

Have no treasure to buy you a gift.

Leave as a present myself -

kind of a verse, plain enough you to reach.

Have no eyes to catch you in glimpse.

Leave as a present myself -

like invisible waft, stroking gentle wind.

 

Have no lips to kiss you a way I could do.

Leave as a present myself -

absorb me at first, then you go through.

Have no palms to embrace you and touch.

Leave as a present myself -

I’m not thorny, even sometimes do hurt.

 

Have no feeling by own free will to depart.

Leave as a present myself -

you are able to, if desire me to discard.

Have no strength our love to run down.

Leave as a present myself -

beseech you only subsist, be alive!

Have no spirit to lose your one’s breathe.

Leave as a present myself -

you own me without knowing if.

Have no mercy a heart votive to kill.

Leave as a present myself -

to succeed you in all and to live.

 

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Evolution

 

Pressed into a corner,

brought somehow to bay,

a beast attacks, it’s ruthless.

So weak am I, no defenses then

in spite of longing for support,

yet pride is like a cancer -

poisoning my blood I fall apart,

crave in fact only for your shelter.

 

Deadly wounded, couldn’t heal,

reclusion mortally belongs,

a beast in privacy conceals.

In spite of longing for support,

I’ll stay to you without comments

and gently smile back in return

till heart just really, really ends.

You see, it’s fully overcome.

 

Sheer nonsense telling,

lost to shame -

I know it’s pointless as it is.

Tried to ask in silence,

free of shade - 

you clear about enough a beast

how used to cry, and fade

with no tears, and no weeps?

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